Runnin' Down A Dream

Losing Weight and Finding Myself

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That moment when…
…your friend uploads and tags a photo of you on Facebook that you forgot taking and you can’t stop staring at yourself.
Call it narcissism. Call it obsession. Call it ironic. Call it whatever you want. But, in the midst of feeling low about your appearance, sometimes a picture is worth a thousand words to turn your mood around.
I expect I’ll lose some followers over this post of self acceptance and love.
When I was fat, I was told I had “such a pretty face.” And people said that, “she’d be so pretty if she lost the weight.” I lost the weight and started dating. And guys liked me. And it was a weird thing when they started telling me that I was beautiful. I don’t know if I believe them when they say it. 25 years of feeling (and looking) one way is tough to shake. Oh, don’t get me wrong, I’m very happy with how I look now. I’ve worked too hard to be that down on myself. But we all experience those low periods. 
So, in the interest of self-love, acceptance, and feeling like occasionally, you CAN look like a million bucks; I give you this photo.
Because sometimes all a girl needs is the right dress, makeup, and camera filter to look and feel beautiful! :)
And that’s just fabulous.

That moment when…

…your friend uploads and tags a photo of you on Facebook that you forgot taking and you can’t stop staring at yourself.

Call it narcissism. Call it obsession. Call it ironic. Call it whatever you want.
But, in the midst of feeling low about your appearance, sometimes a picture is worth a thousand words to turn your mood around.

I expect I’ll lose some followers over this post of self acceptance and love.

When I was fat, I was told I had “such a pretty face.” And people said that, “she’d be so pretty if she lost the weight.” I lost the weight and started dating. And guys liked me. And it was a weird thing when they started telling me that I was beautiful. I don’t know if I believe them when they say it. 25 years of feeling (and looking) one way is tough to shake. Oh, don’t get me wrong, I’m very happy with how I look now. I’ve worked too hard to be that down on myself. But we all experience those low periods. 

So, in the interest of self-love, acceptance, and feeling like occasionally, you CAN look like a million bucks; I give you this photo.

Because sometimes all a girl needs is the right dress, makeup, and camera filter to look and feel beautiful! :)

And that’s just fabulous.

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trivialbob said: I totally knew you were going to a psychic, like six days ago I knew.

Oh Bob, I KNEW you would know! I should just come and see you instead of going to see the Psychic! ;) Maybe you can forecast my love life!

@twentythreetolife said: Ooooh let us know about the psychic!! Have fun Melissa :)

Ally-Thank you! I will tell you guys all about it! I’m so excited!! 

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Terrific Tuesday!
3.1 miles before work OUTSIDE this morning! It was a brisk 44 degrees, but it was great to be outside running. I’m a fan.
The flowers and trees have burst into blooms recently. I am such a fan. It makes all the difference in the world to me when spring finally hits and the world wakes up from its winter slumber. 
This tree is one of many along the hospital that I live across the street from. I love the way the morning sunlight is hitting the buds.
I’m having a dinner tonight with my former College professor that I am very close with. She’s a friend now. I like that. 
My friend Rob and I are going to a Psychic and then going to get Froyo. I’m so excited. I’ve always wanted to go to a Psychic…just for fun! 
I’ve read some other posts about this community and there are some things I want to address. But right now, it’s time to do the news! So that’s a post for another time!
Have a great day friends!

Terrific Tuesday!

  • 3.1 miles before work OUTSIDE this morning! It was a brisk 44 degrees, but it was great to be outside running. I’m a fan.
  • The flowers and trees have burst into blooms recently. I am such a fan. It makes all the difference in the world to me when spring finally hits and the world wakes up from its winter slumber. 
  • This tree is one of many along the hospital that I live across the street from. I love the way the morning sunlight is hitting the buds.
  • I’m having a dinner tonight with my former College professor that I am very close with. She’s a friend now. I like that. 
  • My friend Rob and I are going to a Psychic and then going to get Froyo. I’m so excited. I’ve always wanted to go to a Psychic…just for fun! 

I’ve read some other posts about this community and there are some things I want to address. But right now, it’s time to do the news! So that’s a post for another time!

Have a great day friends!

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Scenes from my 10.2 mile run.

The flowers and trees are blooming! 
I stupidly waited until 2:30 to run. It was 81°, and humid, and partly cloudy. The heavens opened up and it rained a bit on me. It was nice to get cooled off. 

I got yelled at by guys in 2 cars within 30 seconds of each other. They were going opposite directions. It was kind of funny. 

I’m a hot, salty, sweaty mess. But, I’m feeling better about the half in 2 weeks. 
10.20 miles//12:17 pace.

Sunday Runday Funday! 

Happy Easter!

Scenes from my 10.2 mile run.

The flowers and trees are blooming!
I stupidly waited until 2:30 to run. It was 81°, and humid, and partly cloudy. The heavens opened up and it rained a bit on me. It was nice to get cooled off.

I got yelled at by guys in 2 cars within 30 seconds of each other. They were going opposite directions. It was kind of funny.

I’m a hot, salty, sweaty mess. But, I’m feeling better about the half in 2 weeks.
10.20 miles//12:17 pace.

Sunday Runday Funday!

Happy Easter!

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Of No Runs, Bad Runs, and Tired Quads

I’ve been aboard the struggle bus lately when it comes to my training runs. THE STRUGGLE IS REAL, PEOPLE! I’ve been inconsistent at best when it comes to weekday running. But I vowed to get back on the Horse this week.

And I did!

3.1 miles Monday night. 1.5 miles of speed work Tuesday. 3 Miles BEFORE work this morning. 4-5 miles tomorrow and 10-13 on Sunday. We’ll play that one by ear. 

But here’s the thing: for a few weeks now, my legs, specifically my quads have been so sore. Like, they feel exhausted when I run, no matter the time of day. Is this because:

  • I need more sleep?
  • I worked (and stood for 4 hours) at Corky last night?
  • I sit most of the day at the station?
  • I’m a wimp and need to power through it?

Maybe a combo of all of these. But today’s run was kind of eh. I’m hoping sleep will help and I can have a good couple of runs this weekend. 

In other news:

  • I had a blast at Corky last night. I met this great couple (the wife was hilarious!) I told her some of my dating stories. She told me how she and her hubby met and married at age 18. 12 years and 3 kids later, still together and very much in love. Adorable. Insta-friend, you know what I mean? I even gave her my blog address! (hi Rachel!) By the end of the night she was teasing me and told me to get my “whore mouth out of here!” (dating story throwback). I died laughing when she was horrified by what she said. Good stuff.
  • I have a 2nd date tonight with this guy from last week. The guy I went out with Wednesday night on our first date was BORING. I started yawning midway through the date! Whoops. I said to myself, "I grow weary of this dating game." Seriously. I’m over it. If things don’t pan out with this guy tonight, I’m taking another dating break for the summer. I just can’t even anymore. Ya know? He has been texting me everyday, which is nice.
  • Thanks for all the kind comments on my cheek mishap. Good news? I’m fine. It went away to just a pink spot by the evening. No lasting damage. 
  • I have the weekend off from Corky, heading home for Easter with the fam. I’m also getting my hair cut and colored tomorrow. It’s getting crazy long. 
  • See?
  • Note how flat it is with any curl in it? This is why I have to do my hair everyday. Its not a good look otherwise.

Well, have a wonderful Easter weekend friends!

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Well, that’s gonna leave a mark!

I was hurrying down the hall from the studio to the newsroom, to tell my boss about a special report. My main anchor was playing a joke on me, holding the door shut. I ran up to the door, using the force of my run and my body. That caused me to run into the door WITH MY FACE!!!. I hit the door pretty hard with my right cheekbone. 

Its been 30 minutes and that’s what my face looks like. I’m praying it doesn’t bruise. THAT will be hard to explain! 

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Ghosting is for cowards! Also - I have the EXACT same thought when I see pics of others.

Ryan—Right? Such a jerk move. I’ve been ghosted too many times to count. And it sucks each time. But this one doesn’t really bother me for some reason. Perhaps it’s because I just wasn’t that into him! 

snapthistiger replied to your post:Let’s Chat
2 guys at the same time date is interesting. i hope they are both gentleman..

Snap—Actually I’m not going out with both of them at the same time tonight, but I’m dating them both right now. Does that make more sense? I had a date with the first guy last week and we text nearly everyday but he has yet to ask me out again. (dude, just pull the trigger!) and this is my first date with this new guy. So we shall see. 

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Let’s Chat

  • I have another date tonight. It’s a first date with a new guy. In fact, I may or may not be seeing 2 guys at once. YOLO and all that stuff, right?
  • On that note, the guy that I went out with a handful of times appears to be disappearing into the night. I HATE that. Don’t ghost me dude. If we’ve gone out more than a couple of times (read: 5) then it’s your duty to man up and be honest about your behavior. I’m an adult. I can take it. Geez.
  • My plan to get back on the Marathon Training horse is going well; I did 3.1 miles on Monday, 1.5 miles of speed work last night, a rest day today, and will do 3 miles tomorrow morning before work. Accountability FTW!
  • I want to go to NYC in July with Brooke . It’s sweeps, and it may be a struggle. But I’m certainly going to try! 
  • A recent discovery: I don’t really like a lot of the old foods that I used to love anymore. Particlulary: Chinese food, cake, fettuccine Alfredo (really most pasta) and others I can’t think of. I find myself craving good for me foods now. I dig it.
  • "Comparison is the Thief of Joy."-Dwight Edwards. Oh how true this is. I find myself seeing pictures of other people that I follow and thinking to myself, “I weigh less and am the same height as they are, but why do they look skinnier than me?”  No joke. I still struggle with body issues, despite being pretty much where I want to be-weight and size wise. But everyone has a different body shape and ways that they carry their weight. I am tiny on top-like a size 4, whereas my bottom half is an 8. And that’s cool. That’s me. I have hips and thighs. I also haven’t been working too hard lately. I get it. But I see others who post selfies proclaiming self love and it makes me sad. I don’t look like them. My hips are bigger, or appear that way in the camera shot. But why should I be sad? My journey isn’t their journey. My story isn’t at the same point as their story. It’s all relative.                       Which leads me to another point…
  • Who are the selfies and “Body love” pictures posted for? I’m as guilty of this as anyone else. But are we posting the photos for attention or for the praise and attention that the pictures receive because of our looks, progress and new hot bods? Do we get a thrill from the likes and comments about how awesome we look? Or do we want people to see how far we’ve come? I don’t know. These are things I think about.

Anywho, have a great Wednesday friends!

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My Lincoln Half Marathon training has not been the best lately. 
In the past 3 weeks I’ve been sick with a head cold and a tooth infection. I’ve been busy with work and life. I’ve let my weekday runs go by the wayside. I’ve pretty much only run my long runs on the weekends. Maybe a mile or 2 during the week. 
So it’s no wonder that my runs have been suffering. I feel like I’m not conditioned enough. Like my legs are dead and I’m super sore. So, with 3 weeks until the Half, I decided to get my proverbial crap together. Today, I ran 3.1 miles. On the treadmill. Without stopping. I usually take a few walk breaks. My legs felt good, for the most part, but they know what’s coming: I’m running 3 miles tomorrow too, and Wednesday, or Thursday. There will be a run on Saturday, and then I’m doing 10-13 miles on Sunday. So, in that spirit, here’s today’s post-run selfie. 3.1 miles//33:52 //10:54 pace.That was a good, sweaty run.
It’s time to re-commit to this. I have 3 weeks . I’m in good shape. I want a sub 2:25 half. I can do it. I WILL do it. 
It’s on.

My Lincoln Half Marathon training has not been the best lately. 

In the past 3 weeks I’ve been sick with a head cold and a tooth infection. I’ve been busy with work and life. I’ve let my weekday runs go by the wayside. I’ve pretty much only run my long runs on the weekends. Maybe a mile or 2 during the week. 

So it’s no wonder that my runs have been suffering. I feel like I’m not conditioned enough. Like my legs are dead and I’m super sore. So, with 3 weeks until the Half, I decided to get my proverbial crap together. Today, I ran 3.1 miles. On the treadmill. Without stopping. I usually take a few walk breaks. My legs felt good, for the most part, but they know what’s coming: I’m running 3 miles tomorrow too, and Wednesday, or Thursday. There will be a run on Saturday, and then I’m doing 10-13 miles on Sunday. So, in that spirit, here’s today’s post-run selfie. 3.1 miles//33:52 //10:54 pace.That was a good, sweaty run.

It’s time to re-commit to this. I have 3 weeks . I’m in good shape. I want a sub 2:25 half. I can do it. I WILL do it. 

It’s on.

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catiw asked: (PART 2) SO !! THANK YOU SO MUCH!! foor inspire me !! OMG i cant express it correctly! I will be starting this monday ( tomorrow) again ! and I just ( if is not too much to ask) need suppport since its have been really difficult any tips ???? and THANKS for inspire me !!! a lot of hugs for you !!

Starting over is hard, but it is the first step to taking control of your life. What worked for me was not to make HUGE changes all at once. I started by simply eating better. After about a month of that, I had lost 20 pounds. I cut back on Pop and fast food, and ate a lot of salads with grilled chicken and light italian dressing. Then, I added in exercise. At first, just walking and weights with friends. Then I tried the elliptical and then later, running. That is my passion now….even though some days it seems that running and I are having a fight! (burnout is common!). 

My tips:

-plan your meals. Don’t make excuses because you don’t have time. Bodies are made in the kitchen and toned in the gym. You can’t out exercise a bad diet. I counted calories. It worked for me.

-Find an exercise buddy. In the beginning my besties had to drag me to the gym. But I went. I needed the accountability partner. Now? I like to run by myself. I’m funny that way. :)

-Find an activity you enjoy doing. Whether its running, walking, swimming, Zumba, bootcamps, biking, whatever. If you like doing it, you’ll KEEP doing it. And enjoy yourself and see results. 

-Lift weights. I know, I know, I hate doing this too, but muscle burns more calories than fat when you’re just resting. And it takes up less space in your body, even though it weighs more. So do yourself a favor and lift. And get strong. That’s awesome.

-Don’t eliminate whole groups of foods in your diet. The instant that a food or a group of foods is off limits, it becomes the only thing you can think about. Moderation is key in everything in life…even water! (you can drown, you know!). Feed your body healthy, whole foods from the earth. Fresh fruits, veggies, proteins, whole grains, fats. You need them all. But do so in moderation. (I will never do fad diets. It’s not a diet. It’s a lifestyle change. Think of it that way and it will become easier, I promise.)

-Celebrate small victories. But not with food. Why do we reward ourselves with food? We’re not dogs! Get a massage, a manicure, a pedicure, a new haircut or a cute new top you’ve been eyeing. My reward for 60 pounds lost was a massage. It felt GREAT to earn it.

-Weigh or not to weigh? I weigh myself everyday. I have for years. It works for me. It may not work for you. If it motivates you, then good. But if you become crazy obsessed, then don’t do it. Go by how your clothes feel. Just remember, you are NOT a number on the scale. 

That’s all I can think of right now. Please keep me posted with how you’re doing!! Good luck!!

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catiw asked: omg !! you know Im reaaly REALLY depresed these days... feeling down, my weight is just on and off, and these past weeks I have been soo sad and tired and without any motivation... so in on my phone looking at tumblr and ... suddenly i see your picture with your pants... i was like REALLY ???? that´s my size !! and I need to loose !100 pounds too !!! so went to my laptop and check your story OMG !!! IM LIKE WHOAA!! THANKS !! YOU INSPIRE ME !! (PART ONE )

Hi there! I’m so sorry you’re depressed. I know how feelings can be tied to your weight. I am so glad that my story inspired you. That’s why I share it. Losing weight has been one of the best things I have EVER done for myself, and for my future self. When I found those pants, it was like a piece of my past coming back to remind me who I used to be. I can’t ever forget that girl. I will answer your questions in the next ask.

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Huskers

xfitlibrarian:

Spring Game today

Coach led the team out with a cat.

I’ve never loved the Huskers more.

Bo Pelini does the spring game tunnel walk with the Faux Pelini cat.

This is fantastic.

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What’s that I see? Are those Melissa’s legs in SHORTS for an outside run for the first time in forever?

Why yes, yes they are! It is so nice outside. I wanted to run 13 miles, but woke up too late for that. I then decided I could run 7, but cut it down to 5 when I realized my cold was still kicking my butt.

I’m not complaining, but you guys! It was almost humid out! I am not acclimated to the warm weather yet. They’re forecasting thunderstorms possibly tonight, so that explains the humidity and warmth. It was a rough, rough run. 5 miles//12:07 pace. So slow for me. 

There were a few houses with their sprinklers on. I was a fan, especially when the wind caught the water and I got a cool, wet breeze. I was HOT!

And, some trees are blooming. Hooray for spring!

I’m going to hit the showers and get ready to head to Corky this afternoon.

Happy Weekend friends!

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Happy Friday!!!! I’m in a pretty great mood because:
It’s 78 degrees and PERFECT outside!! Light breeze, no clouds. LOVE IT. And the day is almost over. I’m happy, happy.
80 tomorrow, and some thunderstorms possible. Gotta love it.
I went to the Dentist again for my poor teeth. The good news? I need 4, count em 4, fillings. But NO ROOT CANALS or crowns YAY! He thinks that is the problem…there are some surfaces that are mini cavities. I’m a mess. But its better than any other alternatives. He also says I need to use a Sonicare Toothbrush and this product called Sonicare Air Floss. So that will be expensive. But will hopefully prevent further issues.
I’m planning a long run tomorrow, then 2-11 at Corky. MONEY!!
I got a $1 off coupon to my favorite Froyo place. Love that!
Happy Weekend Friends!

Happy Friday!!!! I’m in a pretty great mood because:

  1. It’s 78 degrees and PERFECT outside!! Light breeze, no clouds. LOVE IT. And the day is almost over. I’m happy, happy.
  2. 80 tomorrow, and some thunderstorms possible. Gotta love it.
  3. I went to the Dentist again for my poor teeth. The good news? I need 4, count em 4, fillings. But NO ROOT CANALS or crowns YAY! He thinks that is the problem…there are some surfaces that are mini cavities. I’m a mess. But its better than any other alternatives. He also says I need to use a Sonicare Toothbrush and this product called Sonicare Air Floss. So that will be expensive. But will hopefully prevent further issues.
  4. I’m planning a long run tomorrow, then 2-11 at Corky. MONEY!!
  5. I got a $1 off coupon to my favorite Froyo place. Love that!

Happy Weekend Friends!

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